It’s only day three, and I’ve failed already.
For all my recent thoughts about process and writing rhythm, I wish I could say I’m doing better than I am. I signed up for Camp NaNoWriMo, setting myself a goal of 30,000 words. The catch is that I already have to write 15,000 words for my final MA project.
My ambitions at the time were that I would do what I had to for the course, and then have 15,000 words just for me. How many words have I written, 3 days in?
I had a 6,000 word splurge in the days before I considered doing Camp NaNo, which I think contributed to a kind of complacency.
Well, wait a minute. I definitely got complacent, and then I got scared. The truth is, although Wheels is progressing, I’m not 100% sure it’s going in the direction I’d like it to. There are too many lines which make me think ‘Ouch’, and most of it hasn’t really given Denny much room to grow.
If I don’t know her, then the reader doesn’t know her…and if the reader doesn’t know her, then do they want to know her?
So many questions. But then I read this article. Barbara Spencer writes:
It is possible you’ve never heard of prospiring because it is an old word. For some reason it has gone out of fashion, which is a shame because it is quite a nice and useful verb. It hasn’t got the gnawing-on-your-conscience effect which procrastinate tends to have.
Reading this article redefined my attitude towards my work. I have faith that I will get somewhere with this idea when I need to. Yes, of course, I also believe that the first draft ought to be the finest thing known to mankind, but I can work on that at some point in the future.
Until then, I will keep on prospiring, and eventually, I will begin to write again. When I do, I’ll have a better grasp of where the story will end up, and who I might be when I reach the end of this project.
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